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just few hours away to the finals of BEYOND YOUR STYLE COMPETITION,
i was jolted up by my precious sleep by my uncle.
uncle:
"nie bangun,jaga rumah!aku nk pergi hospital,umi masok rumah"
(wake up dinie,look out for the house while im out to hospital as umi gg to hosp)

looking at the time,it was just 7plus in the morning,and i just get my sleep for less than 4 hours hours with the help of tossing here and there,and shivering.
i was totally,going to kill my uncle for waking me up at this hour of time,and plus im like effing sick.
been,enduring with it like as if im not sick.my throat is seriously killing me and my body can just drop dead on the floor.hehs.


me:
"aku keluar lah!!"
(im going later lah!!!)


and it took my uncle 3 times,exactly 3 times to realise what my uncle said.
and i peeped out from my room,with a pillow covering my sexiest legs as i look as if i was sleeping half naked-ly.
hehs.


and seriously i can see the pain my mom suffering.
just as no one wanted this to happen,
she was all fine the night before.
she was joking around with me,scolding my siblings like a wadmoman being possesed.
and suddenly,in the morning,i saw her like this.

it was said that her backbone was severely in pain.
and i can still vividly hear out my mom crying out for pain.
oh gess!
life dont really sucks after all huh?
hehs.

and seriously,i cant stop crying.
and this bloody fucking keyboard is going blurry.
im like praying to allah,
please,oh please dont HE ever take my mom's life before HE's going to take my life 1st.
i rather exchange my life with my mother than to let anything happened to my mother.

yes,i know,its merely only a backbone.
but seeing and hearing my mom crying out for help and it seriously look like as if she's taking her last breath.
oh my,i just cant stand looking at her suffering.
and anything can happen you know.

im just praying really hard that hopefully nothing bad happens.
and umi,be strong.
i know your' a strong woman.
please,or please dont let anything happend to you.
i cant risk of anything happen to and so does trhe other childrens of yours.

i gotta stop crying,
seriously.
but i just cant.
im just effing weak when it comes to my mom's concern.
my mom knows why.
i would never ever make my mom cry for me tho' it'll be a good one or will never ever let my mom's happiness ruin by nayone.

its just too much to handle.
imscared i'll just let everything off..
but i know i gotta be strong for my mom.

umi,stay strong aites umi...
im praying for you know.
just come back home quickly....

and to my fellow dylimarcell.
please oh please,do not ask me or tell me if should we just back out form the competition.
no,we are not.
im not going to let anyone down,you guys work hard on it.
and dont worry,im fine.
i'll just put up an act and be strong for my mom.
and please,anyone.
do not comfort me if you guys can.
because,it'll might just be another crying session.
hehs.

and my 3 lil brothers are still sleeping and snoring like an asshole now.
fuck life!
but i am enjoying life!=)