poe wannabe.

Friday, October 10, 2008, 10/10/2008 07:48:00 AM

with regards to my previous post.

dont worry,i am fine.
thank you.
i was just expressing my feelings some way or another.

i respect them as my elders,and my family.therefore,i didnt argued back with them and
not to disrespect them by talking back to them.

i dont feel there's a need for me to talk right through their ears.
it wont change anything.
and for the rationale about my previous post was just to express my feelings.
and somehow to overcome my problems.

i have been gulping all the perplexities since young and until now.
i just had to vomit everything out.
but i just cant vomit right infront of their faces.
it makes no sense to me,and it makes me the same just like them.

so,trying not to disrespect them.
i decided to blog about it.
i know,some would just say,you can fucking talk to your mom,friends.

first thing first.
am i the one whose going through this or are you?
and its not that i cant turn to my mom.
she has lotsa shits to handle.
and i cant probably ask her to help mine to.

and my friends.
yes i know.
there are friends who will be there for you.
but,friends can only be your pair of ears and brains.
and i know,i will talk to them when i think i want to.
and besides,friends too have their shits.

well,i have live up to it.
and im still living up for it.

i know,i may never know whats the future is holding up for me.

and to you people.
just say,think or do whatever you like.
i know,its a never ending game for you people.
and i cant stop you people from talking or thinking about me, or about my mom.

for what i believe,there's always a reason to everything.

i know,at times.
i will be hurt by you people.
and that doesnt means,i admit defeat.

because of that,i hold this to myself.

"try,and to those who never try.is a failure."

yes,try.
because i know.
i have to try and keep on trying to overcome the obstacles in my life.
and i have to bare this in mind.
whatever we are facing now,there are always others whose facing it more than you.

i will never admit defeat.
because i know,at the end of the day.
its just me whose living my life.
not you,not you and not even you.

and thanks to
dearest lembab for your undying concern towards me and i appreciate it alot,
bee for your supportive-ness in whatever im doing,
danish for your time,making me smile like a dork alone and like a rockstar,
wan,for your concern and mati2 wanna know whats my problem,
and bryan for your tag.

thanks people!!
yes i know,i didnt even win any grammy's award.
just so you know,im a human being with feelings.
hehs.

oh please,
i love everyone!!

and i miss my dearest lembab=(