poe wannabe.

Sunday, May 18, 2008, 5/18/2008 12:09:00 AM

i lead my life with no intention of destroying it nor amending it.

its somehow when you're scribbling on a piece of paper with no intention of what to do next.
life hasnt been fair to everyone.nothing in this world is fair.
its the way how you live your life.

im not nice.
i waas never nice in the first place.
im bad.
im always bad.
i have never ever think that im nice.

i dont see why some sees that im nice?
am i nice?
i dont know..
maybe i am,maybe im not.

i love the life that im having right now,eventho' it really sucks alot,and i mean way alot.
i learnt alot from going through the experience that i'hv faced.when every obstacles in life keeps on coming to you,and pulling you down in any ways.you just feel like giving up,but somehow there's a strength that came out and to pulling you together.

in terms of my love life,

i dont know what else to say.
yes im proud to say that ihv been in true loves before.
its really amazing that you actually know that you're falling in love when you have no intention of doing so.but,love wasnt with my side always.
i had love yes,i treasure every single bits of it.

and i got dumped always!!
hw great can that be??!!
okay,not literally got dumped,bt yeah it was always them who will be the one who initiates the breakup.

a friend once said,

“It’s so much easier to be the one who dump, rather than the one who got dumped”

but it was more to the matter of heart,i reckon.

"if you really love someone,let them go"

But I think whoever wrote that has never been in love. For I believe,
If one hearts dilute itself in a pool of love, once should do whatever it take instead,
Of letting yours truly fades away.

recently,
a friend got me thinking,

"fight for your love if you really love that person"

"and not everything that we wished to have,we can even own it."

due to some things that happened recently,

i fought hard,
fought the best that i can.
with no intention of giving up.
but the further i fight,so is the love towards me.

i dont know if i make any sense.
but i have made my point.

this time round,i wont fight anymore for my love.
im just too scared of losing it.

i'll just let nature takes it course.
its too fragile when matter of hearts is concern.

but whatever it is,i'll just wait and to let somone say
"i like you."
"im starting to fall in love with you."
what the hell am i thinking??
wakakakakakka

but whatever it is,
i love revenge.
but i have never believe revenge in love.
i would simply close one eyes when love is concern.

"I shan’t hurts others

but I get hurt by others"

it takes a minute to like someone,
and hour to love someone,
but a lifetime to forget someone.

p.s: riyan,you'll never get to sleep with me like yesterday ever aagain.
no more cuddling.no more sleeping together.
wakkakaakakkaaka

*constructing beneath the soul*