( The best thing about me is you. ) DYDY, Fluent in bullshit. Outdoor enthuasist. ninie_14@msn.com(blogger) 140891180481 ( Don't waste your time here, move along. )

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back from work about 2 hours ago.
asked for a early dismissed as my lil bro,danish was hospitalised.but i didnt went to the hospital as i totally forget which hospital he was admitted to and my handphone is low and im totally broke plus my spine is giving me the same old problem.so went back home straight.

yesterday was that asshole(stepdad)birthday,my family went out to dinner to celebrate his birthday.didnt tag along as i was working.so yeah,was taking my shower when the quarrel between that asshole and mommy started.it was a huge fight.i wanted to get myself involved,but its more to the husband-wife thingy,so yeah.i was hoping that asshole would just lay a finger to mommy then,the next thing he knows,im beating that asshole.

hmm,i got to stay strong,but seriously im not too sure if i can handle all this anymore.
the pressure,
the hurt,
the emotionally hurt,
te mentally hurt and disturb,
every single thing.


i lost my real family when im 5years old,my parents got divorced,living us,my siblings in the fights of which custody.i was still young to understand everything. my siblings grew up with no proper care,guidance and ULTIMATE LOVE from a parent.growing up with all this has been quite tough and mentally disturb for me.sometimes,i just wish i could take a knife and kill myself.but i know,there's always a purpose for every human being living in this world.sacrifises has been made alot in my life.its really hard for me to handle all this at the very young age. and i really envy people with a gd family background.

there's alot of obstacles in every single one's life.its a matter of fact on how we overcome the obstacles.since young i have to face and overcome the obstacles in my life.and somehow it seriously made me mentally hurt and disturb.

my dad for instance,he changed alot ever since he married with that BITCH.he stopped giving us our allowance to school eversince i was 12years old.that bitch is working and so is my dad.butr i h\just dont know why we werent given any allowance.damn..at times,some would asking me,why dont you have any allowance?and ill be totally dumstruck and embarrased to answer.
so yeah,i had to be independent.but not totally independent. had to struggle with work and studies at the same time.

ihv been facing the pressures and obstacles.and ihv overcome almost all.
sometimes,i just felt that growing up with all this obstacles in life has really make me more mature and stronger in life.

but,i seriously,i dont know how long i cant take all this.financial problems evrything.now,mommy thought of selling the house and move in to grandparents crib.or not to sell the house.i dont know.or i have to help mommy pay the utilitiesbill,the house.i dont know.

im turning 17 people!!!
and i have to go all this shits since i was young!!oh god!!please make me be strong and to overcome every challenges that you gave me and my family.

regarding my love life...
ill just talk about it the next time,.i just dont feel like talking about it now.
plus,riyan has already message me asking me to call him now!!what an anjing that friend of mine!wakakakakakaka


so yeah,gotta go now.and totally sorry if what i just type here was all a dumb stuffs!