Wednesday, April 16, 2008, 4/16/2008 01:21:00 AM

just got back home about an hour and half ago from pool at lucky plaza.


i totally hate my love life to the core!!n i mean it,i hate extremely to the core!!
luck or shall i say love wasnt with me lately or the past few years!
im totally madly in love with that somone!!
im going insane because of love!
i like myself being in love,its a nice feeling!
its something that u wont wish to get out once ur in love.
i cant describe the feelings of love into words.
its somehow rather i tend not to listen to that someone when that someone was talking but instead i was captured on how that someone was talking,
the face,
the expression,
the emotions,
the mouth,
the eyes etc.
sometimes, i was too captured by all this and not remembering some things that someone was saying.and i would always be smiling whenever i was capturing it consiously or unconsiously or when im looking at that person.
LOVE!!its FUCKING difficult for me to fall in love,once i get myself in love,its really hard for me to the get out from it!
it took me 3years to get over my ex!
and im wondering how on earth am i going to get over U!!
HOW AM I GOING TO GET OVER U?
ISIT GOING TO TAKE ME GOOD DAMN 3YEARS AGAIN??
damn,i thought i found u,which is my other half,i had this feeling that you're the one that ihv been yearning for,the one that ihv been waiting for,the one that ihv been praying for all this while.but somehow,i guess i got it all wrong.maybe all wrong.im not sure.only u have all the answers to my questions.


IF YOU THINK THAT ALL GUYS IS A JERK!U ARE DAMN WRONG!!u kept having this mindset that all guy is a jerk,but to tell u the truth,NOT ALL!if u think all guys is a jerk,would all people around u,your friends be having someonme in their lifE?u got the answer to your question,but u fuckingly dont want to accept it!

"miting n gettin to noe u ws a gift tt i cn nvr ask fer in ma life,it ws d greatest gift knwin u in ma life.d memories tt we had togethr ill cherish it.mayb luv made things to turn out tis wae..n i wont put u in blame fer hurting me.i undertsand hw hurt it is to b left somone u luv most.i ws in ur shoes,n nwim in ur shoes again!losing u ws d scariest nightmare tt i wont want to happen again.i tried preventin it frm happenin,n im stil tryin nw d besti cn.nt ol guy is a jerk,even a perfectionist isint perfect itself.i wil stil luv u no matter wat u think i am.u mde me smile wenevr i look at u,u owaesmke ma dae!only time wil tel u hw deeply im in luv wit u n i cant bear tn lose u.i wnt mind tkin d risk of getting hurtso as to prove u wrng."you cant live for tomorrow, if u kip tinkin of ystrdae"i will nvr stop lovin u * * * * * *!=)"

this was what i sent to that someone.was it gd?do u think tt it'll just hit that someone head n realised that someone is there for that someone ???please tag n comment people..>>>>>>:)

i feel so lonely,there's too much of pain that im facing nw.
the total sadness n the excruciating pain that im feelin is just too much for me to handle.
I NEED U BACK IN MY LIFE!
I LOVE U ALOT!
I MISS U ALOT!
I NEED U!
I DONT WANT TO U TO GO AWAT FROM ME!



life otherwise,


i love my life alot,i have family,extended family,friends who cares and concern about me alot!be it directly or indirectly.im happy to have u people in my life,you guys will be there for me whenever i tremble n fall to pull me up and continue my life with hving confidence that i can!

I TOTALLY LOVE U GUYS!!

well,my life is almost as perfect.and that's one thing that i can never see of.



this was the conversation that i had with a stranger in orchard mrt station when i was on the back home.

stranger says:
hi,can you help me with this machine?i want to go to newton,but im not sure of how to use the machine.!

i says:
hmm,sure.no problem!

stranger says:
total there's three of us.

i says:
ok!(so i was helping them,and they were amazed!i mean i cant blame them right?they must be a tourist from malaysia.)

so,once im done helping them and stuffs,i went down.and saw them in a blur sotong face on which sides of the train they should board.so i went to n said..

i says:
excuse me,madam!its here!you are going to Newton right?

stranger says:
yes!thanks!(with smiling at me)

i says:
so,all of u are heading back to the hotel?

strangers says:
where r u heading?

i says:
khatib,back home.and u guys?

strangers says:
newton,trying out the hawker centre food!

i says:
ok!where r u guys from?

strangers says:
indonesia,and where r u from?

i says:
here,singapore!

strangers says:
oh..ok(lauging)

the train arrived,n we all board the train.while boarding the train i was questioning myself why on earth the stranger asked me where im from?DO I LOOK LIKE ONE FREAKING INDIAN OR PAKISTANI OR A NEGRO OR A WHATEVER DUDE THAT THE STRANGER WAS THINKING!CELAKA PEH ANAK!!
when the train arrived at Newton,the strangers were still blur sotong!and so i went..

i says:
miss,its here!

stranger says:
oh!ok!(and tell the other two friends to alight)

stranger 1:
thanks

stranger 2:
thanks alot.

stranger 3:
thank you very much!

i says:
ur most welcome!


YEAH people!!im damn nice today u know!i went back home straight after playing pool instead of going to a pub!im a nice "BIG BOY" today!! im nice today!!!:)


P.S: i cant believe that i typed all this and its freaking long...kakak kau peh laki sialll!!wakakakakaka,just for fun!

*INSOMNIA BOREDOM AND LOVE!*