poe wannabe.

Wednesday, April 2, 2008, 4/02/2008 09:48:00 AM

am nw at my dad's crib,listening to music ,checking my friendster,becoming an emotional FREAK again!!boohoo!

anyway,past few days hv been too mundane..cant find a better word actually..so,as i was saying,

went to a family chalet at elias road or what..it was a bangalow chalet!cool!

bt not that cool for me..i had to forced myself to go,just to make my pathetic father of mine

happy! i showed up my face for that chalet,and all i did was to play with my

sis psp,playing badminton,and the mosst important thing is EAT!!!hahaha..

sunday was like the worst day of my life!(ok,i lied!)i sat at home all day long with not going out at all!eat,sleep,smoke was the only thing that i did at home..i had been such a lazybum,

i did not even bother to help my mom to do the housework!but,don't blame me..i had alot of things in my mind!

yeeah!my ite results was out on monday!it was a gd news!

(ok,i lied again!)

i did not get into that course!!wtf!

the course is like a haplak sak!and the requirements was to pass ur n level!

mind u,i did pass my n level!n my results was way better that the requirements!!!

i totally hate my life!

and when i that god is getting on my side!i actually scolded

vulgarities to the person that i love most!!which is that sumone!

i dont know what came over me,and actually i showed that person the ugly side of mine!

damn it!! seriously,i hate people to buey me let alone giving me false hope...

i scolded that person,said alot of vulgarities and said some nasty things..but,gd thing,it was only a

abit that the person saw my ugly side!tho' it was abit,i still feel bad about it..

i should never let my anger took control of me,i dont want myself to be

the "old me"!

yeah!!!!that person is not attached afterall...we met during that person's birthday..

we had a talk,and the truth that i was waiting like hell,was out...that person is not attached! im like so happy..to that person,i understand the situation that you're in nw!

and we are in the same boat!but,dun worry,i will always LOVE u no matter what happen! and im SOORRY!!!

yesterday,went back to woodlands,went to my kakak angkat house..its been since we met..and there was soo many things that we talked about!

IT WAS COOL!then,around 8pm i guess,we met anna and we went to have our dinner at north plaza..ate laksa at the chinese stall..it was quite nice lah..

after dinner,went to 846 to chill before going back to her house..

it was like an hour gone,and kakak was like saying to me "ekh dinie,u hungry?,i hungry again sia!"..haha..we went to 7 eleven,she bought some snacks n i bought carrot juice!went back to kakak's crib..we were playing cards,talking,being a fool..n when suddenly she said,"im hungry again sia!"..we went to shop n save,she bought cup noodle..n i bought carrot juice!!hehe...

after she had finished eating n stuffs..we played card,and then that was when i sang

"fly me to the moon,and let me......in other the words,please be true,in other words i love u!!!!"

i went nuts!and kakak kept on laughing...then,when ida got back from work...i went back home!!

and i kept on singing that song...i dont know what come over me!i kept on singin that song!!

*IM REEALLY IN LOVEE AGAAIN!!!*

PLS DON'T HURT ME,AND I WONT WANT TO SEE YOU GET HURT AGAIN!