( The best thing about me is you. ) DYDY, Fluent in bullshit. Outdoor enthuasist. ninie_14@msn.com(blogger) 140891180481 ( Don't waste your time here, move along. )

( Tagboard )

recent posts. 21-May-13 21-Apr-13 21-Mar-13 21-Feb-13 21-Jan-13 21-Dec-12 21-Nov-12 Mungkin air mata aku tidak ada yang hiraukan. Aku ... 21-Oct-12 21-Sep-12


lotsa things happened lately.
family's been going through alot of shits.
hehs.
but are still going strong tho'.
and i love every single of my family.


dance has been great.
totally fun and tiring but great.
hahs.
i am sure going to miss Darkness Fall Crew(DFC)!!!
im going to miss the fun,tiredness,laughter and lotsa more.
damn,we sure did a great job didnt we??
that 1 week really shows we did our practices.
hehehehe.

and i hope DFC aint stopping here only.
=)=)=)
we'll make another one aites?
and thanks to DFC!!
hehehe.

and yeah,did get to meet up with dearest for awhile yesterday.
i hugged u!!
and i mis syour effin hug.
i wanna meet you like real soon dear!!
ily so much!!

thats about it for now.
run along now.

im sorry.
yes,we have just settle and came back as peace another one came up.
im sorry.
i dont mean to.
i have no intention of perking up n scold you.
if you were in my position now,you will know how ihv been feeling and thinking.
its never about the question if its fair enough or anything.
but the question is on how we both understand each other feelings and sharing everything out to each other.

you said your piece,and i heard it willingly.
i heard it because i want to,and not because you want me to.
i have never told you about how i feel truthfully about that person.
i wished i never did have those feelings.
but yes,insubstantial,apprehensive,demented were exactly the feelings that ihv been keeping from you.

i told you the truth,
but i guess the truth were too much to handle for the both of us.
yes,im at fault.
im sorry.
and no,i have no intention or thinking to leave you or anything like that.
im just despondent that you cant seem to fathom myself just like the way i fathom you the way you wanted it to be.
its not that you dont apprehend myself,but you just have the tendency not to outlook on situations.

but i guess,you made your point and so do i.
its up to you now.
no,its up to the both of us.
im just an asshole who always make you feels sad and because of me,
you have been crying alot.
im sorry that you have been crying alot because of me.
im sorry that you have to put up with all my nonsense all this while.
im just an asshole.
i dont think im worth your love anymore.
it just break my heart seeing you treating me this way.

but its alright.
i guess,this asshole have to learn the hard way.
and since you want the reason badly.

i have never fancy that chap or shall i say your friend!
i have never ever!
i hate that friend of yours.
i hate you going out with that friend of yours alot.
i hate it that you dont seem to apprehend because of that friend of yours.
i hate this feeling.
i hate whenever i told you the truth yet you kept on doing it.
i hate what that friend of yours did.
i hate that friend of yours.
i hate it when you talk to that friend of yours beside the norm thingy.
i hate it when i get to know that your accompanying that friend of yours tomorrow and not accompanying me today
i hate to have this feeling.

and never say that im not an apprehending person.i am.
but that friend of yours made me to have this feelings.

im seriously sorry.
i am.
and you know what.
this are the reasons.
and im telling you now not beause i want to make you happy,
but because i want to.
and hey,its never your fault alright.
dont say its your fault.
its our fault.


im sorry=(=(

oh whatever!
im just missing you alot.
but whatever.
im just enduring with the reasons you're giving me as usual.
wont bother myself to ask you the next time round.
it'll just give me a heartache.

and seriously i hope you are happy with your actions.
seriously.
it just means that im nothing to you.
im not saying its your fault.
but, with "..." given to me.
its exactly the same as you not being online,why bother to online when you dont know what to say or you're speechless?
come on,ihv been waiting for you to get back,and this is what i get in return.
well,i know im not worth being cared,or loved.
but if this is what im getting then,
im really speechless now.

and you didnt even bother to fight back but instead you agreed with it and continue with your actions.
seriously,am i asking too much from you?
if i am.
please do tell me.
because the thing is.
it seems like you're not happy with me.
hehs.

anyways,stayed home today.
im too broke to go out already now.
mommy had an operation earlier on.

everything went smoothly.
cooked mommy maggie.
hahha.
the conversation were pretty much funny tho'.
anyways,having dance practice later at rp.
just get rid of myself thn!

imy.

sunday was super fun!!
met dearest at 4plus then headed off to causeway point to catch movie again.
ahahhahah.
went to the nearest cathay,as i was seriously lazy to go any further than woodlands.
ahahah.

so we thought of watching "angus,thongs and snogging" bu we were late.
and we watched" yes man".
geess!!
it was freaking awesome!!
ahahha.
it was hilarious.
damn!!
you guys should never miss it!

anyways,we just paid for the tickets.
we got free popcorn and drink.
ahahha.
because it was our anniversary.
lol,kidding.
a friend was working there.
so yeah.
ahahaha

after the movies,chill for awhile and then took a bus to dearest's crib.
spent the night there.
=)
hahah.
it was so much fun.seriously.
ahahha.
woke up realising that dearest's mom bought for us breakfast before she headed off to work.
heee..
isint dearest's mom sweet and thoughtful?
=)=)=)
ad dearest mom is cute btw.
hahahah.
just like dearest,
hehs.
ahahaha


had dance practice earlier with (DFC) at rp.
so,had to miss chingay's practice.
but kak z didnt went as she attended to chingay last minute.
and i was like,@#$^^ because i wanted to go to chingay too.=(
hahahah

anyways,practice was fun and tiring,
there was so much laughter.
ahahahah.
cool shit.
and kak nurul,watch your back.!!
ahahaha.
kidding.

and imy lembab.
and thanks for everything all this while.
meet up with you real soon.
ily

been super busy.
with dance.
yeah dance.
aint kidding.
sorry to all the peeps if i have not link you yet.
i will do it now i guess.
lol

and yeah,dance and chingay was super fun.
it was tiring,but it was worth going.


AND PLEASE DO MAKE YOURSELF FREE ON THE 28TH DEC(SUN).
BECAUSE DARKNESS FALL CREW(DFC) IS JOINING A COMPETITION!!
hahahaha

YEAH,
and it a collaboration between dylimarcell and fhunkie stylerz.
wohoooo...
do come2!!
do come!!
and please support us yaw!


anyways,some of the days were being spent time much with dearest.
and i pretty like it very much.
things with you had been so much better and nice tho' at times we do fight.
but im glad we are fighting.
yes,im glad,because somehow the fueds that we have really do make us closer and the bond to grow stronger.

on monday,watched "the day the earth stood still" with dearest,bee,anna,hetty.
and on friday,went out with bee to have a short dance practice and headed down to
TTSH.
visited rashid and min.
they both met an accident.
get well soon aites guys.
=)

and in the night after having dinner with bee and dearest at jurong point.
went to catch "twillight" just me and dearest soon after bee left to her aunt's house.
the movie was awesome.
i loved it.,
worth taking up your 2 hours plus.
serious shit.
it was freaking romantic.
i mean the last part.

AND HAPPY 4TH MONTH ANNIVERSARY MY DEAREST ITAM LEMBAB!!
=)=)I LOVE YOU!
meet you later aites.


p.s: to the nameless,yeah she was one of our supporters,and she support us.
you cant really blamed here tho'.=)
anyways thanks for the comments,next time i'll ask amute person to video up for us?
*winks*.
and hers'a another video for you.
and you cant hear the girl's voice much=)



pictures.











hello2!!
ahahhaah.

how was it?
it was effing fun lah i tell you!!
the comp was super fun and the sad thing is the event was like super fast ekh!!
hehs.

felt it was really fast.
so yeah.
reached the place,and went to the holding room.
lotsa things happened.
we still had not burn the cd as each of our computer burner was spoilt.
so we had a last minute thingy and stuffs.

blablabla...
it started n our introduction was super sucky.
ahahha.
i kept on coughing n coughing,and i kept on nearly wanting to vomit.
i am sick.
while we were behind the back stage,i was super nervous.

and oh,its been exactly one year dylimarcell last perform and BEYOND YOUR STYLE COMPETITION was our COMEBACK!!
hehehehe.

so,the crowd was fun,we had fun.
it was uper fun,and cha cha almost vomitted on the stage when we were done.
there were 7 teams,intially there was 9 teams for the finals.
but 2 teams back out due to some reasons.

results for the top 4 battle crews.
emerged,
fantastic crew,
dylimarcell,
(mix crew)i forget thier name.

so for the 1st round battle was to win the spot to another battle for the 1st and 2nd position.

emerged vs. (mix crew)

&

dylimarcell vs. fantastic crew.

and we were like super blur sotong duringthe battle.
we were totally unprepared.
we choked,but its ok.
it was fun tho'.
the experience was fun.

thn emerged vs. fantastic crew for the 1st and 2nd position.

and

dylimarcell vs. (mix crew) for the 3rd and 4th position.


well,this time round we were kinda prepared.
and we soo had fun during the battle.
it was super funny and fun.
ahahahhaha.

and after styles from beyond performed.
results were out.
and we got 3rd.
we were super shocked.
we didnt expect anything right form teh starting.
seriously.

so here's the results.

1ST-FANTASTIC CREW
2ND-EMERGED
3RD-DYLIMARCELL
4TH-(MIX CREW)


and congratualtions to FANTASTIC CREW for winning.
already expected you guys to win!=)

and oh,limited edition routine was super nice.
they did a great job.
=)

and oh yeah.
i lost my voice!!!
i aint lying.
i lost my fducking voice.
well,not totally
but it sounds like a retard dude from M.I.N.D.S school trying to say i love u.
ahahahha.
no offence.
thats how i felt about myself.
ahahhaha/.



do comment on us aites,abnd have fun watching!

and thanks for coming you guys to support dylies!!
one fham yeah!!
thanks for supporting!!
thanks FIS,FREEKZY NUTZ OTHER DYLIES,ONE FHAM,FRIENDS,DEAR FOR SUPPORTING US!
HEEE.

and THANKS ALOT NANEP FOR THIS LAST MINUTE COMP!!
AHAHHA.
THANKS MANN!!
AND THANKS KAK NURUL!=)
imy lembab.

just few hours away to the finals of BEYOND YOUR STYLE COMPETITION,
i was jolted up by my precious sleep by my uncle.
uncle:
"nie bangun,jaga rumah!aku nk pergi hospital,umi masok rumah"
(wake up dinie,look out for the house while im out to hospital as umi gg to hosp)

looking at the time,it was just 7plus in the morning,and i just get my sleep for less than 4 hours hours with the help of tossing here and there,and shivering.
i was totally,going to kill my uncle for waking me up at this hour of time,and plus im like effing sick.
been,enduring with it like as if im not sick.my throat is seriously killing me and my body can just drop dead on the floor.hehs.


me:
"aku keluar lah!!"
(im going later lah!!!)


and it took my uncle 3 times,exactly 3 times to realise what my uncle said.
and i peeped out from my room,with a pillow covering my sexiest legs as i look as if i was sleeping half naked-ly.
hehs.


and seriously i can see the pain my mom suffering.
just as no one wanted this to happen,
she was all fine the night before.
she was joking around with me,scolding my siblings like a wadmoman being possesed.
and suddenly,in the morning,i saw her like this.

it was said that her backbone was severely in pain.
and i can still vividly hear out my mom crying out for pain.
oh gess!
life dont really sucks after all huh?
hehs.

and seriously,i cant stop crying.
and this bloody fucking keyboard is going blurry.
im like praying to allah,
please,oh please dont HE ever take my mom's life before HE's going to take my life 1st.
i rather exchange my life with my mother than to let anything happened to my mother.

yes,i know,its merely only a backbone.
but seeing and hearing my mom crying out for help and it seriously look like as if she's taking her last breath.
oh my,i just cant stand looking at her suffering.
and anything can happen you know.

im just praying really hard that hopefully nothing bad happens.
and umi,be strong.
i know your' a strong woman.
please,or please dont let anything happend to you.
i cant risk of anything happen to and so does trhe other childrens of yours.

i gotta stop crying,
seriously.
but i just cant.
im just effing weak when it comes to my mom's concern.
my mom knows why.
i would never ever make my mom cry for me tho' it'll be a good one or will never ever let my mom's happiness ruin by nayone.

its just too much to handle.
imscared i'll just let everything off..
but i know i gotta be strong for my mom.

umi,stay strong aites umi...
im praying for you know.
just come back home quickly....

and to my fellow dylimarcell.
please oh please,do not ask me or tell me if should we just back out form the competition.
no,we are not.
im not going to let anyone down,you guys work hard on it.
and dont worry,im fine.
i'll just put up an act and be strong for my mom.
and please,anyone.
do not comfort me if you guys can.
because,it'll might just be another crying session.
hehs.

and my 3 lil brothers are still sleeping and snoring like an asshole now.
fuck life!
but i am enjoying life!=)

the fever is abit better now.
and now im down with gastric due to the side effect of that pathetic medicine.
hehs.

so later on im having dance practice at 130 untill 6,then 7 to 10pm chingay practice.
hehs.
hopefully by then,im fully recover.

anyways,please do amke yourself free this saturday and head down to toa payoh west cc to support all the finalist in BEYOND YOUR STYLE COMPETITION!
=)
and,dylimarcell is one of the finalist=).
we are backk..
ahahaha.

the admission is free,and its at 5pm to 10pm.
do come and support us and everyone aites.=)


oh i sure do miss dearest now.
=(

im seriously effing weak n sick.
gees,finals is like on saturday n i can be sick at this time.
hehs.

i just love my dearest.
practice was okay,except for the fact that i nearly wanted to faint but kept cool and quiet.
finals like few days away,and i cant risk not to focus.


dear,i love you so much.
and i really miss you to the core.
meet up soon aites.

and im free today,but have to rest my butt on my bed.=(
and oh,im not attached.
please stop asking if im attached or not.
im not attached,like seriously.
you can choose not to believe me,but the fact is that im not attach!=)

thank you once again.
and just so you know,im not attach with anyone.=)

'p.s:taufiq batisah birthday was yesterday!he's 27,but he still rocks!=)




hari raya haji was ok.
not so much of a boredom.
and suddenly iwas like in the mood of raya-ing.
strange,i know.
ahahha.

had dance practice with dylimarcell.
just been too busy with them working on making a comeback.
so yeah.
anywoos,so today dance practice was not much of dancing.
more on discussion.
because,fawly couldnt make it.
so,while had one of the break..

cha cha decided to do breakdance.
hahaha.
and so she asked everyone to learn breakdance.
and i was like %$#&%^(!!!
ahahha.
well,to be honest i really sucks when it comes to breakdancing.

but,i decided to give it a try.
well,the 1st attempt of doing a chair.
seriously,it was fun learning it.
but it wasnt fun being taught by cha cha,because she kept on laughing.
luckily,b-boy sunshine was there,cha cha's guy.
so i asked him to teach me instead cha cha.

and so,i finally did it.
haha.
i got the hang of it.
and yeah.
buit it wasnt perfect or anything.
just that i got the hang out of it.
ahaha.

and im missing my dearest itam lembab to the core.!!
like seriously.
ily dear!=)
and iny badly.


if its too much to ask,then just forget about everything.
i wont blame anyone,dont worry.
dont just make a scene out of it when its already too late.

well,apart from this.
weekend was fun actually.
had chingay in the morning and went off early around 1plus.
went to zenghua cc to support voguelicious!!=)
the comp was alright.

went back home straight after the competition.
everyone was fatigued.
met dearest and spent the night with dearest.
and met dearest again on sunday night.
hehehe.

anyways dearest,i was kinda shaken off by your actions earlier on.
seriously.
aint kidding.
no norm stuffs like we did huh.
and currently am just pondering why the sudden action and decision.

ily,imy,iny.=)
ur such an ass sweetheart!=p

anna accompanied me on thursday to outram for....

met her at10am at khatib mrt.
well,everything went smoothly.
and yes,just as i thought,the question popped out.
and yes,i was dumbstruck.
i nearly had a breakdown because of that.

but hell yeah.
a decision had to be made.
and i made a decision with the help of my i/o.
well,i didnt wanted to pursue this matter for some reasons.
but the outcome is still not out yet.
have to wait for the upper management to have the final say.
and yeah.i got back my handphone back.
hahahah.
well, a hideous phone to be precise.
ahahah.
well,you can blame me,i had it since 3 or 2years ago.
lol.

so,while checking out that phone back.
i realised that were so many memories inside it.
and i mean so many!!.

one of it,its about ma ex.
the ex that i really love and care alot.
well,that ex of mine was my true love.

" I don't mean to hurt you or your feelings. you're one of a kind, you got a great heart my friend. remember that always. ..... and all i wish for now is that i hope that someone else will come into your life and love you more than i do.whatever happens with your life, just hold on k.."

"......Im sorry.. i wish you all the best with your life.promise me that you ill take care of that someone when you have found one k..."

and this was the exact words that ex of mine messaged me during the last day we were together.
but there was more,but it was more to myself.



and i hope you are reading this.
yes,i understand the position you were in that point of time how much you really love me but had to let go of me.i know,after the breakup there was some times,when i was being a jerk towards you.and im truly sorry for that.tho' we werent long with each other,but it was something that i really treasure.and reading back the messages we had before we both broke up,was just a memories that i cherised alot.and yes,i am still holding onto my life,im not letting it go.
i have never forget that phrase.just so you know,i am still holding onto the promise.
i am taking care of that someone and loving that someone,and dont you worry=).and yes,we are still friends right?
and you cnat imagine how proud am i seeing you leading and becoming one FANTASTIC graphic designer.ihv told you,you will suceed,and im proud of you!all the best with your website and future.
and,dont let go of that someone now will you?;)
take care and remember our song.=)
and 9th sept 2006 was our date.


and ily lembab!!
and imy too!
and iny lah!!
wellof course,my dearest itam lembab rocks my life!=DDD

Tagged by LOVELY SIS(liyana)!!


RULE #1 People who have been tagged must write their answers on their blogs and replace any question that they dislike with a new question formulated by themselves.

RULE #2 Tag 5 people to do this quiz and those who are tagged cannot refuse. These people must state who they were tagged by and cannot tag the person whom they were tagged by continuing this game by sending it to other people.

1. Do you have secrets?
yeah!*eye brown up and down*

2. Would you fall in love with a boy/girl older than you?
love isint about age for godness sake!

3. How long do you intend to wait for someone u really love?
aslong as i can?

4. What would you do with a billion dollars?
if only it will come true.i will talk about it once i have it.=)

5. Will you fall in love with your best friend?
thats a secret.=)

6. Which is more blessed, loving someone or being loved by someone?
Both. watch "THE LEAP YEARS"and you'll know why.

7.How do you define love?
Eternity..

8. If the person you secretly like is already attached, what would you do?
i'll be happy as long that someone is happy.=)

9. Is there anything that has made you extremely happy?
Yesss!!MY LOVES ONES,AND EVERYONE IN MY LIFE!

10. What makes you sad?
when i broke my nail?hahah.kididng

11. How would you see yourself in 10 years time?
i'll be a good looking guy.LOL

12. Who is currently the most important people to you?
Family,friends,LEMBAB.

13. What is being regarded as the most important thing in your life?
Unity of family and friendship knots and the presence of love.

14. Would you rather be single and rich or married but poor?
Single and rich..’Cause no matter what, family and friends will still be there for me..

15. What is your favourite colour?
BROWN!!!
and some others.

16. If you fall in love with two people simultaneously, and both of them do the same, who would you pick?
the one who returns meback love.

17. Would you forgive and forget no matter how horrible a thing the someone has done?
Forgive is a yes.. but forget,is a no.!

18. What do you want to tell the someone you like?
Hmm…. there's a no need for me to tell?

19. If there is a choice between lover and friends,which will you choose?
Definitely BOTH!im greedy.why?hehehe

20. Do you believe that there's "True Love"?
Yess!!


5 ppl who's going to do this survey.

1) BEE
2) ANNA
3) AFIQ
4) FAWLY
5) DEALYA


just as i thought of leading my miserable life with happiness,
there it came up from nowhere.
why the hell couldnt you just come up like earlier than before??
its really a heart breaking when im living life to the fullest,and you popping out from nowhere.

just why??
why??!!
why couldnt you approach to me 3years back just as when i was really into of pursuing this matter?
and now,just as i thought you guys wouldnt come back,you guys did.
im totally at my utmost lost.
i cant help it anymore.
im seriously just as afraid of what its going to be like later on.

my brain is cracking due to this matter.
im not sure.
i dont know.
im lost!

i just feel like jumping off from 2nd storey.
but wait,thats not committing suicide.
thats just and utterly foolish act.
hehs.
i know,i cant help myself of not thinking that.
im scared.
im going insane?(for now)

i dont know.
geees,i dont know whats best for me.
seriously.
im not sure if by pursuing this matter it'll lead to happiness or just a hatred..
but whose going to hate me?
my family members?
my two little brothers?

can i just like be a bangladash or something until everything is settle?
imjust as weak as it is.
serious shit.

what i need now,
a person with non-nonsencical mouth,
a person who can feel what im going through,
a person who can give me both side of points,
a person to cry with?(coz,i feel like crying now)
a person to hug me?

yes,i know.
im....
oh whatever.
imjust having a really bad time.
seriously.
i aint joking.

i need my lembab.
dah lah!!
i dont know.
whatever isit.
imma just shut my brain and just smile.
right kak nurul?=)

whatevr happens,happens.
hope bad things dont.....

you should know by now.








iny badly and imysm n ily to the core.


i know we can make it right.

had a dance practice with dylimarcell on something.
hahaha.
it was fun,but we kinda stopped dancing soon after in the night and did crazy stuffs.
hahha.
we carried people up and there.
it was kinda lame and hilarious but fun tho'.

will post the pictures once i get them.

and it all started with the one word reply thingy,and leaded to the issue of next year.
gees,like i have said it again.
if you really wish it to be like this,then be it.
seriously,i cant stopped you,since you want it so much.
i kinda stopped and kept on asking you if this is what you want.
and u gave me shit.
hehs.
it really surprised me with what you said.

come on,i dont mind with what you are feeling.
but try to be in my shoe when someone said this,but you found out something else.
get what i mean?
and i bet,you dont.
and who gives a damn if you blogged about it?
but,can i ever ever see it?
no!
i seriously dont know what you want from me.

haiss.
im at my utmost lost now.

and dont think i have forgiven you yet.
i have not.
i guess so i have not.
hehs.

you made me pipe again,and just dont woe.

iny.