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its hurting seeing the state that you're in now.
i tried my best to be there,but i think its just not the time yet for everything.
i hope the best will turn up soon.

you know i will be there for you,and will try my very best to be there for you.
thousands of feelings and emotions are being kept,and its not being shared.
and never will i know what its like to be.

i just hope for the best between the both of us.
seriously.
hurting you will be the last thing that will appear in my mind.
but,i wont have the ability to do that.
and you know that.

slowly take my hand,and walk this thing together with me.


i miss your hug,and the way you would react whenever i kiss your cheek.



i miss you to the core.
meet me up today?

morning suckers!

just ended up the conversation with dearest itam lembab on the phone.
and gonna make it short and sweet due to the request from dearest itam lembab
asking me to go to bed now.

anywoos,i had fun talking with you.
sorry for putting down the phone at one point of time.
you really made me angry for awhile.
and you're not my friend.
yes,you're more than a friend to me.
heee.


and THANKS ALOT dearest itam lembab!!
thanks ekh!
you really made me look and sound like a fool on the phone.
seriously,you killed the momentum.
and you know why.
hehs.
but its ok,i understand.

and before you kill me for blabbering too much now.
i shall end my post now and head off to la la land.

i miss you soo much you lembab.
u ass.
hahahaha

im back home already.
i feel abit,ABIT better.
but not that much.

so,i decided to walk from khatib all the way to admiralty.
tell me,it was fun or what.
walking alone on the streets,pondering of what's the best outcome.
well,i was walking really slow because i took 1 hour and 20 minutes to reach there.
initial plan was to walk around aimlessly.

i just love that,walking aimlessly as if there's no direction that im heading.
i thought of going to the normal rooftop,but friends saw me and blablabla.
and yeah,chilled with them.
for a moment,all the perplexities were all erased.
but it came back soon after.

and before everyone headed home,we did just like what we did few years back.
lying on the ground together,and would just look up upon the sky and would just look at the stars while talking about what we feel about each other.

and yes,if you ever see the brightest stars among them,that's me and it means im happy.
but if you ever see the sky is cloudy and the stars seems to be dead,it means im sad and i need you.

i just cant believe that they remember myself saying it.
hahahaha.

well,it seems that my brain is still playing dead on me.

i dont know what else i can do.
i need you now badly and i miss you gler babs dearest itam lembab.


and to be honest,
i wont waste my time,my prepaid or anything if i dont care for you.i dont mind wasting all this just to be there for you or to show you that i care for you.
whatever i said,i mean it.


because i know,
vous m'avez changé de façon ou d'autre.
et im essayant d'être la meilleure personne pour toi.

and thank you for talking to me on he phone although you were pretty mad just now.

chill aites.
and dun forget to eat your medicine!!
hahahaha


i miss you lembab.=(

it feels so different out of sudden.
im losing my appetite slowly.
my stomach hurts so badly now but i just cant simply eat.
one spoon,and im full.

i dont know.
i just got back from sentosa,esplanade.
but seriously,with the little hours or shall i say a few minutes of sleeping,
i am still not sleepy or tired yet.

im not insane or anything,but its just that my mind refuse to rest.
but what i am sure of now.
im taking a shower later on,and im heading to nowhere.
im just not in the mood to stay at home now.
i'll go berserk soon enough if im cooped up at home.
hehs.

alone perhaps?
yeah alone.
will going alone.
nevermind.

but,i am not going to do anything stupid of course.
because i know,i am strong to handle all this.
but,i just need someone,that someone to be beside me and hearing and being there for me.
thats what i need most now.

will update soon.
ahhahahaa.
p.s:i love suntanning.

i need you badly now.
and i miss you badly too.


the more i foresee it.
it kept me pondering the cause out of it.

im taking a shower soon before heading out to sentosa.
im feeling qualmish.
but i am not going to help myself with the medicines.
i cant help myself,and i just cant be bother.

hopefully later,its not going to rain.
and oh,im playing volleyball!!
smile baby!!~~~
screw you asshole!


and i miss you lembab.


will update again later.


i know im never good.
i know im nowhere perfect.
bt i do know,im trying the very best to be good.

im sick now.im having fever,and i almost fainted in the street.
hahahha.
imagine seeing me fainting,and laughing while looking at my horrendous expression.
i bet i must be the ugliest person for a minit.
ahahhaha.

je sais, vous suis confus.
parfois, j'ai juste souhaité qu'il n'y ait aucun secret entre les tous les deux us.but, il semble comme, vous gardez beaucoup de choses de moi.

oui, pour être honnête, je suis jaloux.
mais pas totalement extrêmement jaloux.
je souhaite, nous que tous les deux pourraient communiquer entre l'un l'autre bien, des problèmes de part dans les deux de nous et etc.

je n'ai jamais douté de vos sentiments au sujet de moi.
mais, son comme si je peux me sentir comme vous cachez quelque chose de moi ou vous êtes effrayés pour blesser n'importe qui.

je vous ai dit avant que celui qui votre décision soit, je suis heureux tant que vous êtes heureux.
je t'ai dit que que je serais là pour toi, et mes grandes oreilles précieuses être toujours à vous toutes les fois que vous avez besoin de quelqu'un pour parler à.

je connais son dur, mais im ne vous forçant jamais à précipiter des choses vers le haut.
je suis désolé si je suis celui dont les choses de précipitation.
je suis désolé si je blesse vos sentiments.
je suis désolé si je ne suis pas là quand vous avez besoin de moi.

mais si, vous avez déjà pris une décision, mais AM effrayé pour blesser n'importe qui sentiments.
me dire juste.

parce que, si son pas je que vous choisissez,
son ok.
oui, je pourrais être blessé et triste.
mais, la pente d'amour juste soit force.
et elle prend la main deux à la tape.

celui qui soit lui, je serai là si vous avez besoin de n'importe qui.
et je vous manque juste au noyau.
extrêmement au noyau.


imissyou

a day's out to anna's open house and to the cathay to watch HIGH SCHOOL MUSICAL 3!!!
it a blast.

its a shame,some didnt get to join us.
nevermind aites,there's always a next time.
=)=)=)

anyways,i just had enough of you.
you're too much.
i think i'hv been too kind to you all this while,
and to think you could actually take it as a advantage?

just whats wrong with you?
you jolly know that im really loathe people who actually goes the opposite with what they say and not keeping to what they planned.

and you simply keep on doing it purposely.
i have been tolerating with all this,and ihv been keeping mum.
i tried not to have a fight with you,but look.
whose the one whose easily finding fault and testing someone's patience?

seriously,im not going to confront you or anything like that.
im just sick and tired with all this.
fuck you!

i know,i mean nothing to you at all.
but is this the way you're treating me for being good to you?
i dont know whats wrong with your little idiotic mind.
fuck it.
im just sick and tired of you.

do whatever you wish to do.
and if you happen to read this and you're not happy with me.
by all means,approach me.
i dont give a damn.

anyways,i will post the pictures another time.
im just too lazy now.


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wednesday,
went johore with e,his mumsie.
it was freaking fun tho' i couldnt get to sleep as i have to be there for kakak,and ma bff,bella.
anywoos,
thanks cik,and e.
heee.

then,i met dearest itam lembab later on in the night.
spent the night there.
i had so much fun with dearest itam lembab.
it was worth.
i told ya right,didnt i?

i said,i wanted to take care of you.
and i know i was being a pampered one.
my bad.
and blame you for hiding your true feelings.

but i dont know why.
the feeling is totally different then usual.
hmm...


waking up in the morning and to be found someone whom you really care alot for is sleeping soundly around your arm.
and it really strike you and you treasure that someone,and hoping that you would never loose that someone.
kept thinking and thinking,and only to find out that someone is someone important and someone special in your heart.

and thats how i feel.
if you think im corny,then i'll shall say its the thing that me made feel this way.

i know,actions speaks louder than words.
and i am trying to prove it that words arent cheap.
i know,im nowhere near perfect.
but,im trying to be the best for that someone.


to whom it may concern.
im dedicating this song for you.



i miss you.
and three words.
im for real.

went to meet dearest itam lembab near my crib.
then,played laptop and everything.
went admiralty while dearest itam lembab went to other place.

its so nice being with dearest itam lembab.

and2 fhunkie stylerz prac was fun lah sey.
lol.

now,im worried about dearest itam lembab.
dearest is really sick now.
and dearest cant really breath.
omg!
fuck!
seriously,im fucking worried bout dearest itam lembab safety.
damn~~!!

whatever isit.
i miss you.
and i hope you're ok now.

haiz...
will update soon.

okay 1st.
i miss esprit!!!!
haahhaha.
okay,not literally the company.
but the workers there.
my ex co-workers.

i miss them terribly.
and the bond that we all used to have.
i really treasure them.
its a work place,that i wont never forget.
out of all job,working in esprit and working with them is such a blessing for me.



during the last day of esprit's operation.
boy,we sure do had alot of fun.
and the teamwork we had,was superb.




this was the last time i met them.
and this was our last gathering together.
boy,i miss them alot.
especially,fizah.
the one who hug her arm around my hand.
damn.

fizah.she's one of a kind.
a great confidant.
people,when is the next gathering??
hahaha

and2 this is my dearest adk angkat.

boy,she's beautiful isint she???
and she's getting prettier every single day man.
and i wonder how gorgeous she can be when she's20.
damn!!
she's vogue isint is?
and her brother,asyraf,is her photographer.
a talented and bond kind siblings.

i miss u adk.
heeee~~~


and before i end this post.


happy 2nd month to us.
and meeting you later.
i miss you~!

okay.
im awake early in the morning.
well.literally,i slept at 2plus am i guess and i was awake nearly at 5am.
im effing bored early in the morning.
there's nothing much for me to do.

housework??
thought of doing.but seriously im too lazy to move my ass around.
hahahaha.

so on sunday,woke up with a call given by hasween asking if i wanted to meet
kak z and herself at marina square.
woke up,took a shower and off i went.
meet up with kak z,hasween,kak seri,adk kak seri.
then,the siblings left.

v came.
and at 8,kak z and hasween left.
waited for e(the part time boyfriend)hahahaha to end work with v.
then came along amira and her sis.
sat at marina and chilled.
laughed our ass off.
and went back home.

anyways,dearest itam lembab is still sick.
and is getting worst actually.
geeess,im worried.
gonna dive dearest itam lembab a wake up call
at 730am.

and a very good morning to you people out there!!
hahahaha.
will update again.



its hard to say anything now.

thursday went to civic as usual.
and they meet up with dearest itam lembab.
then off to dome to meet up with kak z and the rest.
and stayed overnight with budak ap and off to meet up with kakak and the rest since
plan for dearest lembab failed.
and things happened.

luckily,i didnt injured myself.
and dont worry dearest itam lembab.

went back abit late at 6plus in the afternoon.
and received from aween.
changed and by 7plus,off to town with kak z and the rest.
but bee had to go after we went far east.

went to youth park to have our dinner.
it was blast.
thanks everyone,and nanep for the food.
wooohhooo.


and let me show the pictures.



saturday.
dearest itam lembab is sick,and still sick now.
haizz...
went to catch flava 1 perform for hari raya performance.
fun or what?
dope or what?




okay that's it!!
hahahaah.
im bored.

dearest itam lembab,family,my crews,sygies,loveliest,(name pending),ef fam,friends.
you people are my life.
wohoooo~~~

and i really miss my dearest itam lembab very badly now.
gotta bounce.

appearently,i have been changing my blogskin for 3 times.
first,mira helped me.
thanks alot.
but somehow it was very messy,and i was meddling with the codes.
and it got me irritated and i asked for andreas help.
changed a new skin.
well,andreas really did helped me alot.
and yeah.
thanks alot to andreas and mira.

and the previous skin was damn ugly.
and it looks liek a constipated page with syndrome on it.
so,i had to change.

this time round.
i didnt do it.
dearest lembab helped me.
since saturday night,we havent been contacting each other.
1st my prepaid went low.
2nd,i got money to top up,but then again i didnt want to.
i was seriously lazy to top up,and no mood to contact with anyone except for the fact for my
dearest loveliest.

anyways,i meet up with kakak and fandi at khatib.
and then decided to top up my prepaid and off we went to our normal kopitiam.
so yeah,update about each other life.
its been since we meet up.
chilled,drink,talked.
and then off we went on our seperate ways.

anyways,i love my new skin.
its deadly dull,but somehow its alive.
i mean to me.
i dont care what you think.

and i thank my dearest lembab for helping me out.
you're the best and i miss you.
but then again,you're not the best because you help me.
but because you'hv been the best all the while.
heee...
jyeah!





and everything seems to be falling apart.





first,all the pictures here are randomly inserted!!im lazy to arrange.


well,thats what i did on sat.
spent my time jalan raya-ing with dylimarcell,loveiest,cliques.
well,appearently that someone didnt turn up just as i expected.
hehs.
that didnt bother me.
things happened,along the way.
few had to go.
bt still,we were really in a big group.
24 over?
i guess.

and2,i had fun,.
it was ubber fun i tell you.
the rapping,singing,laughter,shouting,running,walking,
was really a blast.
it was seriously ubber fun.
damn it!
haha.
last was hatri's house,and everyone dig in!
i mean,its hatri's grandparents who cooked!
damn!!

oh yeah,there was more couples.
but we were ok.
and2,my date was none other than my part time boyfriend.
hahahaha,
my dance mate.
ebal!!
ahahaha.

i love everyone!
and kak z,dont worry,you know we're there for u.

took cab home.

and sunday was anotehr outing with my ex classmates.
but,only 7 turn up cbecause it was a very last minute plan for all of us.
there was my bestie bitch bella,ernie,ayumy sweet ex-girlfriend tsai,saripah and maizurah.
and i didnt took alot of pictures.
most are with them.




so yeah,and i ate alot this two days.
i gained weight!
fuck!
nevermind,tehre's always dance!!

and monday and tuesday had been going down to civic macdonald with
bee,anna,hetty,nanep,kak lisa.
myself,hetty and anna accompanied them to study.
hehs.
O LEVEL JEK PE??!!!
kn kn kn nanep??
hahahaha.

and tuesday,i saw FHUNKIE STYLERZ!!!
WOHHOOO!!
hahahhaa.
saw kak z,remy,eerah,mama nora,kak nurul,fee,kak seri,adk kak seri,jon,khalis.
abg issac,abg wan,and kak lydia werent there.

was walking to the dome,
and saw the pretty people!!
heee.

okay,im lazy to update now.
will update later.
again.
hehs.


i miss you.=(